So I would just tell myself, tomorrow it will not be like this, so take your time, do what you have to do now so that you get the future that you want tomorrow.”
When you are not sure, when you hope for the best, then you will fear the worst. When you are absolutely certain, even if it is a certainty of suffering, fear disappears, and strength flows in its place.
Hebrews 11:1,2 To have faith is to be sure of the things we hope for, to be certain of the things we cannot see. It was by their faith that people of ancient times won God’s approval. (
Battle of Life…
I honestly don’t know what Im feeling right now. Im even not sure if there’s a word or even a sentence to describe what I feel. I just,……. I find it really sad, depressing, and all the other words involving destruction within itself.
I know there are people who don’t believe in the higher power, in God. And sometimes, when they’ve suffered so much, they can’t help but curse GOD. Thinking about it, you realise, deep down, they want to believe, that part of them believes that GOD is there, but in a wrong way, they think God did those things to them. I myself can’t explain.
But the feeling I have, the fact that I do believe, its much more greater than any other feeling there is in this world. I don’t know how many people have felt that, but for me, I know there is GOD and I have faith in him.
There was once upon a time where I didn’t believe, that I too, have done things to upset myself, and maybe GOD too. It was like I have no care in world but at the same time, I care for everyone’s opinion about me before. I rebelled, I cut. I did things Im not proud of, I thought of scary things, and to actually hate GOD before, was I think the worse feeling ever.
Everything changed on a Tuesday, where everything fell apart and at the same time, i think that was my starting point. I still remember that day, because that will always remind me of how GOD pick me up in the most mysterious way, in the silence where all I can here is my sobs and was trying to wipe my nose. I was begging for forgiveness…
There are times I doubt, not GOD, but me. Maybe Im not doing what GOD wants me to do. But I am thriving. Let God’s will be done. Because I believe and so should YOU.
I know I may not even know or feel what everyone is going through, their sufferings, maybe I have felt it, maybe not. Some had worse, that I don’t even have the slightest idea what it feels like. But everyone is suffering just as the same. People still held their head high, smile, one foot in front of the other. People have the same battle, just different experience.
I have a friend and he said something that struck me. He said, “IT’S SAD TO KNOW THAT SOME PEOPLE THINK GOD CANT DO ANYTHING MORE FOR THEM AND WHAT’S EVEN MORE SADDER, SOME THINK GOD CAN’T DO ANYTHING AT ALL FOR THEM.”
I guess that’s true and it is really sad..
Sometimes you can’t see it or feel it. Sometimes hope seems far away. Often the difficulties you face make it seem as if hope has abandoned you. But hope never leaves. It is always there, ready for you to embrace.
Every journey starts with fear. And I could say that’s what I want to embrace now. A real experience. And I want, overall, to trust what I know is right. There have been many times when I haven’t. It’s what I’m asking myself: Where is the line? What is the line? There’s so much context, it can be almost impossible to find.